As the founder of MADD-SAAC, which not only benefits and raises awareness for SIDS Resources and our cause, is providing a time and place for those personally affected by the loss of a pregnancy or infant, to come together with their loved ones and peers; to share, honor and remember the lives of our babies, and whether that life was spent only in their mother's womb, or their life was shared by many for a number of months...it was just that, their life. Their entire lives were lived, maybe before they even had a first step, a first word, a first laugh or even, a first breath. Yet, their purpose was fulfilled. It takes some many years, and when our time comes,some may not even be able to say to Our Heavenly Father, when they reach the Kingdom of Heaven, that they have nothing. Many will not be able to say, "I have nothing, because I used everything you gave me," as our babies did.
One of the best ways I have been able to grieve, communicate, relieve stress or anger, sadness or fear is to write. Maybe it will help you too. For those interested, this is link to my blog that I started not long before the first Anniversary of Madden's death was approaching. http://findingfaithaftermadden.blogspot.com/ Releasing so many feelings, words and emotions after so long was/is indescribable. I hope if you read this and you are not inspired, you may at be comforted to know that as I have learned, you are not alone.